well emotionally ive been doing better even though im getting rejected by girls at an alarming rate; the internet hasn’t been kind to me but since it honestly isn’t a surprise it doesn’t really hurt. im starting that me finding a girl that 1. likes me and 2. i like her is highly unlikely and im just gonna have to learn to live without ever feeling that feeling but w/e according to what seems like more and more people we are just a bunch of apes that live in a galaxy that came from literally nothing. but enough with my lack of girl news. ive been staying pretty active which has helped my depression and ive been a little more social lately so im gonna stay positive and see what comes. i don’t know what to think of my upcoming birthday i don’t know if i should even be looking forward to it.  i really hope it is indeed a good birthday because i haven’t had a memorable birthday since i was 6-7 years old and the only reason it was memorable was because i remember my cousins being jealous of my ninja turtle toys and them trying to take them.